Monday, 05 January 2009

• One of my first...

  Hey guys...this was one of my first poems...apart from the ones that I wrote when I was 10 that my dad tore up and threw away...somehow he thought that by doing this I would be rid of my bad thoughts...stupid bastard.
  Oh well...read it...think about it...digest it a little...comment if you will but again...no nastiness, I don't mind a bit of constructive critisism but please, think of my sanity...?
  
  

  Changing
  
  I know that I am changing
  And that I don't seem to care.
  I know that I am changing
  And that I'm barely there.
  
  Sometimes I want to disappear
  And leave this world for good.
  I know that that's not fair on you
  But sometimes, I wish I could.
  
  I've tried the pills, I've tried the knife
  I've tried so many things.
  But though I try, and try again
  I just can't break the strings.
  
  Hello? Hello? I'm calling you
  But you don't seem to hear.
  Maybe I'm not loud enough
  Maybe you just don't care.
  
  No one understands me
  Or the way I feel.
  I'm just an outsider in this world,
  I don't think I am even real.
  
  You say "Talk, I'll listen"
  But you don't even try.
  You just can't seem to comprehend
  Why I always want to die.
  
  You see life as a gift,
  I see it as a curse.
  You try talking to the teachers,
  But they make it even worse.
  
  They say the really want to help.
  They say they really care.
  But I know they're really lying,
  Because I'm not really there.
  
  Because I'm fading, fading fast
  And soon I won't feel pain,
  Because I'm changing, changing fast
  Just falling down, like rain.
  
  Just like rain, on the street,
  I cannot be stopped.
  You were just too far to help
  And just like rain, I dropped.
  
  

  I am sorry that it is so long. Hopefully you liked it and I will be uploading some more soon.
  

  Thanks.
  

  
  
  
  

  
  
  

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